I used to be a decent person,
always giving, never to receive.
but you're a better person than me.
I see that now.

You're the one who gave me the strength
in the times when I thought I lost it all.
Everything was spiraling out of control,
I was losing more and more every day.
My footholds were slipping,
my feet were losing the ground.
I never thought this through,
I never thought of a way back out.

But just so you know,
I've never felt so low, but I haven't lost it all.
There's still a burning heart, and so much left to gain.
I know you say there's hope, and I believe you so,
it will just take some time.
your words have grown in me.
but I've never been so unsure in my life.

And now I know,
and this fact I'm sure,
the waves wash over me,
the rain will fall down.
I'll pick myself up out of this hell.
I'll find a place for myself and never look back.
I've been thinking for so long,
I never wanted to lose you.
but my distractions got the best of me.

as I look back,
i was lost even then.